Sunday, November 16, 2008

One more week...

I need a break! I cannot express to you how much I am looking forward to Thanksgiving. We get an entire week off, and I am planning on enjoying every second of it. I feel as though I am doing my students an injustice by just being lazy, but honestly, my brain is fried. I keep thinking, how am I going to do this for 24 more weeks? (Not that I am counting) It is slowly but surely getting better. I spent a whole lot of tears those first 8 weeks or so, and now I am getting more and more of a routine. Not that it's easier, mind you, but it's less of a change/transition every day.
I am extremely fed up of disrespect, though. I caught a kid with his mp3 on Friday. Just listening to his music, not caring about what I say. What bothers me about this kid is that he leads worship for his youth group. I am so frustrated that this kid is the example of Christianity in my class, but treats everyone, including me, like crap. He is rude and hateful, and I would rather deal with my kids that hate God than him. I guess that I really need to pray about that, lol.
Again, the less difficult it gets, the less I pray. I am trying to remedy this, to pray for kids like this one instead of feeling anger or frustration. I am begging God for patience each day, and I know that at the end of this school year, God will have done so much in me. I am praying that He will continue to melt away the bad and mold me into something that resembles Him just a bit more.
There are some other things right now that I can't broadcast, but if you are one of the few that know about these big changes coming up, things are looking good and I am excited.
Keep praying.